Poker is starting to make sense again.  There's an energy flow to it.  You have to be open to everybody's energies, if that makes any sense.  the game is about luck and hubris and humility and waiting your turn and riding the luck as long as it carries you.  Make yourself available to lady luck.  If you catch her eye, it's a very easy game.  It's when you and lady luck are having a spat that this game becomes hair pulling out excruciation.
     If you get to full of yourself poker will eat you alive.  You will tell yourself it's math, it's what the professional gamblers call "variance".  They have it down to a science.  They try to play scientifically.  Sometimes it works, other times it doesn't.  you cannot escape the predatory nature of the game.  The smartest person is likely to have the most money at the end if he is relatively lucky and follows his instincts.  At least that's what I'm going with now.  More later...