in vegas for the last week of this ride, will pull this together in the next few days....its a matter of focus i think....i think that when ih ave cash i dont focus on the writing because theres always a poker game to gto to or recover from and this stupid game can really take over your life if you are uninvolved iother things...balance lacking...poker sucks you in...but how does an advanced brain like me fall prey to this  business of passing dirty gaming tokens across dirtier felt.....my concept of poker is i won enough in that pot, dont get too greedy, but ithats not the norm...people go fot the throat, the successfull poker players are ruthless...id miss ruth too much.,...i need ruth in my life....and with my people pleasing personality i often lose intterrest in playing in the right predatory ruthless style and try out new comedy routines...

thius-  why not focus on comedy once a week or so and perform and see where that goes instead of putting the same amount of energy into being the asshole with all the chips at the poker table...i mean writing down funny bits like the notion about my audi...destroying dumb commercials...today on americas dumbes commercials...you can tell who is watching the programs by the commercials thy run during the show,...who the marketers are targeting and why...examine the relationship between the broadcast show and the beer and viagra commercials that innundate pro fiootball game ads...so who is the typical pro football fan?  a drunk who eats fast food and cant get it up...hmmm.... the one commercial shows a dude awkwardly dancing with his clearly younger and more spry trophy wiife..hes showing that there are ways to cheat neture...have it all,,,..a magic boner pill...

in the one that they have on blast right now the guy is clear;ly either too coll to dance or never bothered to learn how...at his age?  with that younghottie?  he also in one scene is toweling off his wife, he aint swimming, hes too riich too swim...and the payoff is at the end where his gal is absolutely giddy about getting another band tee shirt from a guy that looks like her dad....can that be it?  is this ad targeted to men who are secretly pedophiles, is this his daughter in the ad...is it even sicker that i imagined at first?  i mean who gets giddy about a tee shirt for a second class act?  when they are out there and shes trying to make him dance theres plenty of room on the dance floor.  theres guys arent exacctly packing them int....so they are either lame o musicians, possibly related to this couple, maybe its their sons band? or maybe this is the way rick people with erectile disfunction party...at safe spees, not getting too too crazy....

depends, extra capacity for when you have bladder issues but dont want to miss a second of the game annd the bathroom is too far away, or nfl branded PEE JARS....who is your least favorite teeam?  pee on them everytime...

big man, small apartment, embarrassing discussion of B.O.
i guess that my sense of smell has become numb after a week in the forest/desert
ive been faithfully trying to shit at starbucks while im in this tiny apartment
trying to be invisible
got to make it thru one more night and then its back to the desert

as i watched the sun come up through the purple then cherry then salmon clouds i could not help but think that california is murder
amrica the beautiful becomes california the terrible
heres one verse

"from the redwood Aushwitz,
 to the salmon free waters,
 this states a mortuary"

everywhere i look is evidnce that the murderers and piilagers of paradise didnt even bother to hide
you dont need to be a CSI guy to solve these cases

drive over the cal-arizona border and look at the landscape
how they raped the land to get the gold, the copper or the cement mining/factories....
thats not what the desert is supposed to look like

watching the clouds from the center of evil, Mendocino county
watching the clouds turn into a face as i bathe in vichy springs,
where jack london and mark twain bathed in the 1860's

(I was friggin tom sawyer in 1973, i had to!)

as i sat and i soaked up mineral water  in the heart of redwood valley
ironically the redwood valley is mostly REDWOOD FREE
i sat and soaked and mourned the passing of the redwoods,
soaking in what once nurtured their roots
 97 % are GONE FOREVER!
2000 year old trese clear cut and turned into incredibly durable wooden decking and fence planks
each deck a tombstone
trees that breathed the same air as jesus christ,
now gone forever
buying wine from the mendicino valley is sanctioning TREE MURDER
they still haul logs up and down the interstate and no one cares

but the salmon got it worse....
99 % of thier numbers no longer swim up the eel river in humboldt to spawn....
and im just guessing that all these native american casinos once held thriving populations who knew how to co-exist


 

     Us Neanderthals are not interested in the bells and whistles of your so-called civilization.

  Internet?  Kittens are way, way cuter in real life, and if we need our sensibilities insulted we can walk by a middle school at the end of the day. 

Televison?  If we want to see bullshit we can walk over to a pasture.

 And you Cromagnons thinking you are so, so cool with your culture of violence?   A hundred thousand years ago when you were just starting to become virtuosos of aggression and the world was a bigger place we could simply walk away from you and shake our heads at the ridiculous way of life you were assembling.  That was a long time ago. 

     We are all out of cheeks and you’ve pushed so far into the wilderness that some of us are forced to walk among you.  You will recognize us by our youthful appearance and disdain for greed and consumption.  We smile a lot, us Neanderthallus, but  please remember that as under-evolved primates, the smile is a warning signal indicating aggression.  These are our teeth, do you want to spend years looking for the right plastic surgeon and explaining  where half your cheek went?  Or do you want to get out of our generally peaceful faces?  We are warning you that the biting will soon commence.  Ironically this smile before you attack tactic is used to its greatest effect by your greatest extortionists, pillagers and “businessmen.” 

      We walk among you looking for the few that still have the Neanderthal  hybrid peace gene, the trait that you have been selecting against in this great mechanical age, the one that when fully realized in a primate is quickly extinguished by puppetmaster’s on high by the assassin’s bullet, the jail cell or the wooden cross.   We are bringing peace back.  You have made even the deepest woodlands unliveable with your extreme sports, Humvees, jetskis, private helicopters  and the like.  You assholes think you can own Mother Earth?  Ha.  You pissed our mother off.  We are interested in restoring balance and harmony to this discordant money worshipping cult that you folks kowtow too.  Are we supposed to believe that just because someone was born into a cartel and has a billion pictures of dead racists at their disposal is somehow more entitled to the tastiest fruits on the tree?  When billionaires start dying, it was probably a member of the Pluto Gang who did it.  A few more modern Neanderthals have convinced the council of elders  (three Neanderthal, 2 Sasquartches, a Yeti) to start the great billionaire culling,  There’s a handy list published every year in that nasty capitalistic fetish porno Forbes, thanks for the list!  Oprah, remember your roots!  We would hate to have to bite off your left cheek!  Start giving money away until you are back in the hundred millions, we haven’t gotten to millionaires yet, but the writing is on the wall!  We are trying  not to become caniibals here, because if we do turn cannibal, who is the tastiest flesh of all?  With it’s organically fed, pampered Kobe veal like existence.  That’s right, clean up your act cromagnon or we will eat your children!

Thus sayeth the council of Neanderthals……

LA- Downtown La, DTLA.  Drank in a bar that bukowski drank in.  They sell tee shirts there with jack nicholsons corpulent visage on it in the local team colors.  The town smell like piss.  All kinds of piss.  Old piss, new piss, cat piss.  Try taking a piss withou buyin anything, it's impossible.  The ultimate sales pitch.  Smog leaves layers of filth everywhere.  A city of illiterates.  I wandered thru the financial district, city hall, old downtown, not a bookstore in sight.